I am stepping outside my comfort zone and feel instability deep inside me. I know I am no longer in control, but I also recognize I never was. My eyes dart to everyone and every shadow around me, searching for who or what is causing my unease, but I cannot pinpoint just one person or thing. All of it, the people and the place, all cause me uneasiness. I left behind stability to seek growth. I choose to expose my weaknesses in this place and to these people to gain new strengths. It is here that I feel the most vulnerable but also the most alive.
Tongue River Reservoir, Decker, Montana
February 25, 2021