Forgive me! I know it has been a minute since I wrote.
I've been wandering and becoming distracted by the world's sins with little accountability. I feel more comfortable in my discomfort and remain where I am because the filth is familiar and feels like an answer, even though my heart knows it is a lie.
It's hard to explain. I like freedom, and that feeling outweighs the loneliness. The hardest part to drown out is you. You visit my thoughts daily, but I am terrified you can't hear me, so I am writing.
I want to let you know I am alive, barely, but alive. And that is good considering my circumstances. The world has swallowed me up and spit me out in the pit of hell, and my only hope is you.
I am ready to walk the road to recovery but I am so lost that I need you to show me the way. I am willing to pay whatever the cost, just as your son did for a day like today.
Your Child, Signed by Anyone Who Has Ever Been Here!
Weston, Wyoming March 17, 2023 www.shanamariemoments.com